I have found that feeling described best in the Either/Or of Kierkegaard. The chapter called The Unhappiest Man.

Putting aside the dramatic overtone of the piece, the temporal logic, or rather dialectical swoon of the one that is living in the future/pas(t)ivity is very poignant to me.

https://en.wikiquote.org/wiki/Either/Or#The_Unhappiest_Man